Gosh, two weeks without a post, yes I have excuses – moving in to a new flat and finding out that the phone line has been ripped out of the socket – but who needs excuses 
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My mother, sister and I went swimming this morning – the water was freezing cold – and we all stood around for quite a while waiting for when we would dive in. It’s funny how all the self-talking and badgering you do still doesn’t help you take the plunge. Instead it seems to happen all of a sudden.
But what is it that happens in between. Where does decision take place? How is it made? It doesn’t seem to be a conscious thing, at least not something occurring in the talking, wondering, cajoling part of your consciousness… Its a curious thing, but seems important because I still credit the ability to make decisions to that part of my awareness despite myself.
What would it mean to take seriously this moment of unconsciousness in the middle of decision making?
